Blur

When you're alone too long, you start making these crazy realizations and accusations. There's always that point where I get in such a mood that suddenly I'm not even apart of society, and I proclaim that "no one in this world is like me, no one understands". The classic loner's plea. Since I have nothing to hold my attention this week I've just been cruising across the web. Somehow I stumbled across the Sundance film festival that happens to be going on this week in Utah I believe. Now that I think about it... I have no idea how I found it. But anyway, I've always wanted to go. I have an interesting taste in movies.. I like the independent ones that no one has heard of. Ones that actually have a message or those that don't make any sense at all but something just stands out to me. I was looking through the many many films being shown this year and got very interested in a few.

1. Hesher - Staring a few of my favorite actors: Joesph-Gordon Levitt, Natalie Portman, and Rainn Wilson (Dwight of The Office)

How can you even lose with that cast?! :P

2. thankyoumoreplease - No one extremely famous except for the director who is also from CBS's How I Met Your Mother

Basically it just attracted me because it revolves around NY and all the possibilities and randomness it holds.

3. Splice- My initial attraction to this movie is Adrian Brody, but it looks a little too freaky for me. It's about these two scientists that create a new species that of course strikes back. Looks creepy as hell but I'm def intrigued.

I'm eager to see if any of these films make to to Blockbuster for me, hopefully all of them. :P

Another thing I've been thinking about is that I should get a Flip camera. I really want one, though I'm not really sure why since I hate my voice on recording, I'm always too lazy to take pictures, and I always forget my camera. But I feel like recording life is important. And it's better to start late then never... umm another soon to be forgotten dream, but at least I'm writing again. If nothing else I will get one when I start my travels.

Something has been really annoying me lately: people telling me who I am. My mom has this constant need to tell me who I should be in a relationship with and how I should live my life. She says I'm too young to make big discussions and I'm going to be a great mom someday and I shouldn't ever spend my money or drink. It's just frustrating to feel restricted from living MY life. I wish I could just drive.. drive away and just never stop. Or just jump on a plane without even looking where it was going. I just have to have hope that things will change and someday I'll find where I'm meant to be and do. Until then I'll be waiting and thinking and capturing the things I love about my life now.

I guess I'm starting to sound silly by this point. Maybe it's time for bed. Hopefully I'll be writing another piece of fiction this week. I'll come up with something. :) Good night