Trying to Get Away

Tomorrow is my last day at the Pig till May. I have to say I don't really miss it. Costumers are terrible, and only a few manage to make me smile. Sadly, my campus job is not much better. It's much more boring and my boss is about the same as my Pig one. Anyway it's turning into a "thinking" week since I don't have much else to do. Today I literally laid in bed all day and worked a total of 3 hours. I suppose thinking is good once in awhile. So here are some things I've been pondering.

I really want to win something.

I'm completely addicted to tv, movies, and famous people. I watched the whole telethon for Hati just to see them all. I also watched the SAG awards. I would do anything to win an Emmy or Oscar someday (for writing). I don't care about the fame. I just want prove that I'm actually good at something. I've never been extraordinary at anything. I'm always average or far below. I think even just being nominated would make me beyond happy.

Why do people want to be parents?

I watched a little of Teen Mom and The Pregnancy Pact today and I just don't get it. I mean obviously this are people who are too young to have children but I still don't understand the appeal. I mean kids are expensive. They are with you the rest of your life. They are a HUGE responsibility. I mean if you screw up you could be responsible for the next mass murderer. Really, do I want to take that chance?! I just can't find anything positive in it. I also realized that most of the weddings I've been to have ended in divorce. It's just not fair to the kids. AHHHH I guess it's just NOT for me... AT ALL. I'm still not even sure if marriage is for me, but that's a whole other story.

College

I'm beginning to think that college is the best time of your life. It's hard, it's crazy, it's fun, it's exciting, and everything is changing. It really is a once in a lifetime experience. I already know I'll miss it when it's over. It's pretty much exactly what I thought it would be but it's my own and I love it. I have the best roommate (seriously). This is creepy, but I've always dreamed of the perfect roommate. One that'd I'd be friends with forever afterward, and that I could talk to about anything, and I think I did. Which is super lucky. (haha sorry if you're reading this and feel awkward Sam!) Plus it's kind of awesome how every semester is completely new beginning. It's the best, and I can't wait for the next one to start.

Disappointment

I really have to work on not getting my hopes up. I do it all the time. I get so excited for something too quickly and it disappears. Plans are easily canceled and things change. I just need to wait till things happen. Words aren't promises.

To wrap this up I'll give a movie review and some must listen to music.

American Beauty (R) 1998

I first watched this movie a few years ago and watched it again today because it was on tv. It's a pretty intense story. It features many many many issues that our generation deals with, only normally it isn't so confined, but it is just as well hidden. A few include: homophobia, depression, body image, abusive parents, fake friends, rape (sort of), etc. It's a twisted movie that really makes you think. Really speaks to all ages that can handle R rated movies, and yes it's rated that for many good reasons.

Overall: A

The Pregnancy Pact 2010

A story of 18 girls who make a pact to become pregnant together so they can raise their children together. This movie is really annoying to me. It doesn't make sense how this "just happens" and it def doesn't make a guy want to stay with you. Besides the obvious, the part that REALLY bothered me about this movie was the fact that pregnant girls were smoking and DRINKING. Oh and they barely said anything against it. One scene a girl is just sitting there smoking like nothing is going on. Anyone else confused??? Oh and how is there a beach party with kegs when not only are these kids 15 but half of them are preggers. Ridiculous. Oh and I say this only because I'm a future journalist, but why is the media always painted in a bad light? They inform you and if the media wasn't there you wouldn't know about anything! Like bringing awareness. I understand they can get out of hand but in many situations media is a good thing, but once again I'm bias.

Overall: C

Fun Fact: this movie and American Beauty feature the talented Thora Birch.

Music: check out William Fitzsimmons! He is very soothing, sometimes depressing, but amazing. My favorites include Passion Play and I Don't Feel It Anymore. He also has an amazing cover of Kanye West's Heartless that is worth hearing. Youtube it!

Wow this has gotten quite lengthy. Good night and good luck, a new week is here!