Summer Break! (Kinda)

HEY

So I finished my first year of college last Thursday. It went SO FAST!!

Home has been nice. I like laying around and doing nothing. I've also been working quite a bit. It doesn't feel like summer though. I don't think it will till Stephanie is home and I've had all my grades oh and when it's actually warm out! Speaking of, I NEED a tan, like for real. Anyway this is a short post but I have to go work out. Post again soon!

Adventures in Oshkosh!

Yesterday Liz and I went on a walk. No, a hike. We walked SEVEN miles to Starbucks.

The Beginning:

We decided to FINALLY take some pictures. We've heard of the laying down game and decided to take a shot at it. That only lasted about the first 10 minutes of the walk but ended up hilarious. I also got pictures of my favorite Oshkosh landmarks. Such as Bob's gas station, Nigl's Bar, and Jordy's liquor store where we will buy our first bottles of booze when we are seniors. As the walk continued we ran in to many "characters". First was a biker who really just wanted to get past us even though we're pretty sure it was biking at the same speed we were walking. Then we saw LITTLE LANCELOT! (backstory: we have a bunny that follows us and we have named him Lancelot, our belief is that he is protecting us.) Anyway it was Lancelot's baby, or so we believe. He was ADORABLE! Then we got chased down my 3 little kids who wanted us to help them find their cat. I did NOT like it but Liz kept her cool. Then we continued to be followed by police who were either protecting us, or thinking we were up to no good. Either way we survived. We also saw many creepy people especially the guy with a cane which we guessed he was using as a prop to look week and lure girls in to feeling sorry for him. We didn't fall for it though. It was at this point that we realized we would have to walk back... in the dark. And I forgot my rape alarm.

Part 2:

We made it to Starbucks! It was sooo delicious and worth the "walk". We decided to leave while our drinks were still intact. As we are leaving the parking lot Liz drops her drink. and it SPLATTERS across the pavement. It was sooooo funny... and sad.... for her. She got even got splashed in the face by her treat. silly girl. So she cleaned up and we continued our journey. It was dark at this point, like suddenly NO SUN. But we trekked on... when suddenly I saw... A DEAD LANCELOT! It was so traumatizing but we aren't sure if it was THE lancelot or not but we haven't seen ours since. :( It is very sad indeed. On the way back we passed many creepy houses like idk how they are even standing. Soooo scary. But we made it back! Tired but having a great sense of accomplishment we returned and rested for the remainder of the night. Oh and we realized later that there was a closer starbucks.. we will have to venture to that one another time.

Now, however, we are both very ready to return to our hometowns, but I know once I am home I will miss my Liz dearly. I think I'll survive... for a while. I really cannot wait to see all the other loves of my life. The END.

Epic April: Recap

I feel terrible that I haven't written at all last month, but this post will be super long to make up for it. So my first memory of the month was EASTER!

Easter (April 4th) was alright. Good food, good to be home. My grandma hinting that I've gained weight, but nothing I don't already know.... This day was also my roommate's b-day, which was exciting! I decorated our room and we had a mini celebration when we both got back to school. I also made my first batch of cupcakes which were delicious if I do say so myself.

The next weekend was probably one of my favorites. April 9th, I went to Milwaukee to visit my beautiful Stephanie!!! It was sooooo much fun. We went to see Motion City Soundtrack, which was pretty much amazing. We had to deal with some other annoying concert goers as usual, but very worth it. Justin Pierre was looking as hot as ever! haha I also discovered a band fun. I just bought their cd and it's really good. Catchy and up beat, but not pop. Pretty good stuff! It was just fun to be with Steph and see her school. I love being around that girl. I also realized that we would do pretty ok living alone in a city. We could def figure things out. ;)

The next weekend was Taylor's birthday which was pretty low key. I wasn't really invited to much of the festivities but it sounded like she had a good birthday!

Then I had a chill weekend in with non other than Lizadiz and Craigathon. That was fun, but sometimes they get a tat too couply for me. :P Def getting used to that haha

Finally this weekend was my birthday!!!! Friday was as perfect as it could get. Celebrated all day beginning at midnight. Even managed to get my first class canceled. Then went to Chili's with my family and liz. DELICIOUS Then we went to the mall and Liz and I hit up my sister's friend's apartments. Pretty good night over all! I really wish I could've seen my WB friends though. I miss them like crazy right now. I wish I would've wrote more often in more detail, I feel like this is rushed and boring but I'll try to improve. :P May coming soon.

Something's Got to Break

HEYYYYY

I haven't written in FOREVER.

I'm currently in the middle of my spring break, and it's BORING. I mean My mind is going crazy just sitting here thinking. I've already watched way too much tv but that's about all I want to do. Homework is out of the question and I'm much too lazy to get out of bed. it's alright, I don't mind. I really miss Oshkosh when I'm home. The freedom is just AWESOME. And you ALWAYS have someone to hang out with or share a meal with. I wish break was just a week of no class but where you still had to stay there. Liz and I would be having amazing adventures right now. Seriously. I'm actually really dreading summer. 3 whole months in this town is going to be ridiculous. I either need to buy a car or take a trip or both.

Great just got called into work. Fab. Shoot me, please?

I MISS 920!

Love's an Excuse to Get Hurt

I haven't blogged in a while and I have to much to say but seriously not enough time.

I guess I'll just start with a list of movies I HAVE to see, hopefully soon!

- Everything is Illuminated

- The Hurt Locker

- An Education

- Up in the Air

- New York, I Love You

- A Serious Man

I also have to re-watch:

- Garden State (for the 3295873459 time)

- Annie Hall

- Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Anyway crazy times are upon us. All I can say is I LOVE FRIENDS. :D and I'm just going one day at a time, the way it should be.

Good night!

Songs of the Day:

- Lover I Don't Have To Love - Bright Eyes

- Cat People - David Bowie (INGLORIOUS BASTARDS!)

My Life by like oooh aaaahhh

This is going to be short and sweet.

I'm having a tough week already.

My speech is going to suck ass.

I feel really lonely.

I miss my twin.

I want Friday now.

I'm going into a coma now.

Good night world.

ps. CHUCK WAS AMAZBALLS! (of course)

Adventures

Today I am visiting the lovely St. Norberts campus. I must say this is a much better experience than my first one. It's so pretty here during the day. I'm sitting in the "reflection" lounge working on some homework while everyone else to taking a nap. They have the most amazing windows in here. They are huge and perfectly square giving me a wonderful view of the river. It's soooo peaceful and amazing. To my left is a giant tree whose branches are curved and bend every which way. It reminds me of what we look like... ok let me explain. We're all connected to this base... and we branch off of each other. Ok I'm not good at explaining my crazy thoughts but it makes sense to me. This whole picture makes me think of Brit Lit and how I thought all those men were crazy for writing on and on and on about nature. But I'm starting to see it now. I really can't wait to live in London and see what they saw and what inspirited them to write such eloquent words. Maybe I'll write a few of my own.

This is def the release I needed after this week and hopefully it will carry me until spring break. Happy reflecting everyone!

Ice Cream Topped with Honey

HIIIII World!

Today is one of my busy busy days but I'm making time to blog it up.

I don't want to go to speech class today. I want to watch tv allll day. Unfortunately now is the only time I get to relax until... 11? yeah doesn't that suck. stupid classes. and work. and working out. I wish I was one of those people who just couldn't gain weight. But all this work is def going to pay off this summer when I look HOTT. hahahaha

So I've been thinking about summer a lot. I need a new job or Pig needs to start giving me hours. I also want to go lots of fun things. Like go to Chicago, stay with Sam in Mad-Town, visit Liz, maybe go camping?? umm idk bout that. I'm so excited about LIFE. hahaha not really, I'm pretending. I just need SOMETHING to look forward to. I'm starting to really miss everyone, but distant makes the heart go fonder.... right? SURE

I can't wait for:

Thunderstorms

warm weather

shopping

time with my twin

my cousin's wedding

dancing like crazy

living in LONDON

whooooot These next 4 years are going to be the best of my life. So, I'm living it up. hahaha

I'm being a little insane and I have to go to class so that's all folks!

song of the day: Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind

The Only Living Boy in New York

Yesterday my speech teacher told us that society today doesn't think enough. We're always listening to music or listening to people. I disagree. Thinking is a trap it makes you think of things out of reach. Thinking gets out of control. One little thought can lead to a million worries and fears and regrets. It's confusing I know. Today I was stuck thinking. I want to get away. I want to hop on a plane and just go. I want to go somewhere else change my routine see what's out there. I can't believe how lucky some people are who get to leave for weeks of their summer. I used to think omg I'd miss people so much, but now that I'm in college I've gotten used to missing people. You just do it quietly and you move on. Someday you'll see them again. I know I'm going to live abroad someday... but I wish it was now. I wish I was looking forward to something. There's nothing remotely fabulous about my near future. I guess I should get working on that.

Song of the Day: The Only Living Boy in New York - Simon and Garfunkel

Observations

Today was a really strange day! First off I think I either attract crying people or make people cry. There was a girl at breakfast sitting a table away who burst into tears and just walked away. Then a girl was crying behind me as I walked back to my room. Then at work our infamous cat lady was crying.... I wondered if her cat died. I hope this doesn't continue to be a theme.

I also noticed that things on campus change very quickly. Just over the break we got a new place to eat (B&G Grill) and we have a sudden abundance of digital clocks. I feel like I am once again walking the halls of East. But seriously, they are EVERYWHERE. I don't know why but I dislike them... a lot. Especially the one in the Rec and Wellness Center. Whenever I work out (which is everyday!) I just stare at it, making time inch forward. It's horrible.

I also had some free time at work today in which I looked at Oscars nods and such. I would love to be on the board that votes for such things. I wish I had seen all of those movies. So I'm going to make a list so I know what to rent this summer. I still can't believe 500 Days of Summer got snubbed. I would also like to admit that I honestly liked Inglorious Bastards. I mean it was a little bloody but I loved the characters. The French girl was AMAZING. Total role model and HOTT (no homo). Can't believe the Oscars are still a month away, but I'm not really crossing my fingers for any thing in particular. I really dropped the ball and have only seen like 2 of the nominated. Still it can't be missed!

OMG so I'm a little annoyed that all our "patrons" at the library think that we know EVERYTHING. Today someone asked me where a professors office was which btw is not even CLOSE to the library. How am I supposed to know these things?? A library job does not give you automatic knowledge... of anything.

Even though I'm really really really not big on Valentine's Day. I sort of got in the spirit and am listening to some love songs. Mostly Moulin Rouge oh and I can't wait to watch Breakfast and Tiffany's which is my only V-day tradition. I'm going to devirginize my bff Liz. She's going to LOVE it. Oh and hopefully her bf will get her Bones because I can enjoy that as well. hahaha

ummmmmmmmm I guess I don't have much else to say tonight. But this is def a start to making up for my absence as of late. I have soooo much to do lately, but I like it. Good night Oshkosh. Hoping for a snow day....

Stumble Down the Street

I've officially been back in Oshkosh for a whole week. It already seems like I've been here forever and I love it. I've missed it so much. I'm staying really busy this semester balancing everything as well as I can. I have busy no fun days and then the weekend RELEASE. Which was awesome this weekend. I wish I had more to say but days blur together and I no longer have any thoughts left to share. I do however continue to think about the future (who doesn't). I just need to focus on one day at a time which was working up until today. haha

LIFE

Blur

When you're alone too long, you start making these crazy realizations and accusations. There's always that point where I get in such a mood that suddenly I'm not even apart of society, and I proclaim that "no one in this world is like me, no one understands". The classic loner's plea. Since I have nothing to hold my attention this week I've just been cruising across the web. Somehow I stumbled across the Sundance film festival that happens to be going on this week in Utah I believe. Now that I think about it... I have no idea how I found it. But anyway, I've always wanted to go. I have an interesting taste in movies.. I like the independent ones that no one has heard of. Ones that actually have a message or those that don't make any sense at all but something just stands out to me. I was looking through the many many films being shown this year and got very interested in a few.

1. Hesher - Staring a few of my favorite actors: Joesph-Gordon Levitt, Natalie Portman, and Rainn Wilson (Dwight of The Office)

How can you even lose with that cast?! :P

2. thankyoumoreplease - No one extremely famous except for the director who is also from CBS's How I Met Your Mother

Basically it just attracted me because it revolves around NY and all the possibilities and randomness it holds.

3. Splice- My initial attraction to this movie is Adrian Brody, but it looks a little too freaky for me. It's about these two scientists that create a new species that of course strikes back. Looks creepy as hell but I'm def intrigued.

I'm eager to see if any of these films make to to Blockbuster for me, hopefully all of them. :P

Another thing I've been thinking about is that I should get a Flip camera. I really want one, though I'm not really sure why since I hate my voice on recording, I'm always too lazy to take pictures, and I always forget my camera. But I feel like recording life is important. And it's better to start late then never... umm another soon to be forgotten dream, but at least I'm writing again. If nothing else I will get one when I start my travels.

Something has been really annoying me lately: people telling me who I am. My mom has this constant need to tell me who I should be in a relationship with and how I should live my life. She says I'm too young to make big discussions and I'm going to be a great mom someday and I shouldn't ever spend my money or drink. It's just frustrating to feel restricted from living MY life. I wish I could just drive.. drive away and just never stop. Or just jump on a plane without even looking where it was going. I just have to have hope that things will change and someday I'll find where I'm meant to be and do. Until then I'll be waiting and thinking and capturing the things I love about my life now.

I guess I'm starting to sound silly by this point. Maybe it's time for bed. Hopefully I'll be writing another piece of fiction this week. I'll come up with something. :) Good night

Dead and Gone

With so much free time this week I've been going a little crazy. I even took a bath today. Wish I had one of those giant Cribs tubs. Decided I'm not much of a bath person. Has anyone else noticed that bathtubs are used in a lot of horror movies/murder stories. Watched Dexter for the first time, and dude kills a girl in a bathtub. So I'm officially not a bath person. At all.

After that experience, I watched some online TV. Everwood to be exact. Nothing else really exciting happened until I turned on MTV for the second episode of The Buried Life. I have to say it's not the normal MTV crap (which I sadly can't turn away from). It's thrilling and sort of heart warming. These four guys (who are HOTT btw) have a list of 100 things to do before they die and for everything thing on their list, they do something on some strangers list. So of course I got to thinking, What do I want to do before I die?? Honestly it's a pretty short list at this point. I'm not some crazy adrenaline junky and I don't do things 'just cuz'. But I came up with a few solid answers.

1. Travel. A Lot. To Anywhere.

2. Live in another country for at least a month.

3. Win an Emmy/Oscar/anything for writing

It's harder than it sounds. My list is short but difficult to accomplish. I can't think small scale right now. I guess I just get in a weird mood when I'm alone too long.

Song:

Dead and Gone - Lewis and Clarke

How long should I wait?

Today has been an interesting day. I decided I really really really like singing to songs I love. I don't care if I suck at singing (I know I do) but it's fun. It's some kind of release that I just need. Now I know why I really miss driving. It's the only time I get to do that. At school I just don't. But through all the adventure of today, I'm truly exhausted. Which is weird because I haven't been tired in forever. I feel like a weight is on me just weighing me down. I just want to get back to Oshkosh. Sorry I'm rambling and it's not even fun rambling.

Songs of the Day:

You Still Hurt Me - William Fitzsimmons

Crush'd - Say Anything

Konstantine - Something Corporate

Trying to Get Away

Tomorrow is my last day at the Pig till May. I have to say I don't really miss it. Costumers are terrible, and only a few manage to make me smile. Sadly, my campus job is not much better. It's much more boring and my boss is about the same as my Pig one. Anyway it's turning into a "thinking" week since I don't have much else to do. Today I literally laid in bed all day and worked a total of 3 hours. I suppose thinking is good once in awhile. So here are some things I've been pondering.

I really want to win something.

I'm completely addicted to tv, movies, and famous people. I watched the whole telethon for Hati just to see them all. I also watched the SAG awards. I would do anything to win an Emmy or Oscar someday (for writing). I don't care about the fame. I just want prove that I'm actually good at something. I've never been extraordinary at anything. I'm always average or far below. I think even just being nominated would make me beyond happy.

Why do people want to be parents?

I watched a little of Teen Mom and The Pregnancy Pact today and I just don't get it. I mean obviously this are people who are too young to have children but I still don't understand the appeal. I mean kids are expensive. They are with you the rest of your life. They are a HUGE responsibility. I mean if you screw up you could be responsible for the next mass murderer. Really, do I want to take that chance?! I just can't find anything positive in it. I also realized that most of the weddings I've been to have ended in divorce. It's just not fair to the kids. AHHHH I guess it's just NOT for me... AT ALL. I'm still not even sure if marriage is for me, but that's a whole other story.

College

I'm beginning to think that college is the best time of your life. It's hard, it's crazy, it's fun, it's exciting, and everything is changing. It really is a once in a lifetime experience. I already know I'll miss it when it's over. It's pretty much exactly what I thought it would be but it's my own and I love it. I have the best roommate (seriously). This is creepy, but I've always dreamed of the perfect roommate. One that'd I'd be friends with forever afterward, and that I could talk to about anything, and I think I did. Which is super lucky. (haha sorry if you're reading this and feel awkward Sam!) Plus it's kind of awesome how every semester is completely new beginning. It's the best, and I can't wait for the next one to start.

Disappointment

I really have to work on not getting my hopes up. I do it all the time. I get so excited for something too quickly and it disappears. Plans are easily canceled and things change. I just need to wait till things happen. Words aren't promises.

To wrap this up I'll give a movie review and some must listen to music.

American Beauty (R) 1998

I first watched this movie a few years ago and watched it again today because it was on tv. It's a pretty intense story. It features many many many issues that our generation deals with, only normally it isn't so confined, but it is just as well hidden. A few include: homophobia, depression, body image, abusive parents, fake friends, rape (sort of), etc. It's a twisted movie that really makes you think. Really speaks to all ages that can handle R rated movies, and yes it's rated that for many good reasons.

Overall: A

The Pregnancy Pact 2010

A story of 18 girls who make a pact to become pregnant together so they can raise their children together. This movie is really annoying to me. It doesn't make sense how this "just happens" and it def doesn't make a guy want to stay with you. Besides the obvious, the part that REALLY bothered me about this movie was the fact that pregnant girls were smoking and DRINKING. Oh and they barely said anything against it. One scene a girl is just sitting there smoking like nothing is going on. Anyone else confused??? Oh and how is there a beach party with kegs when not only are these kids 15 but half of them are preggers. Ridiculous. Oh and I say this only because I'm a future journalist, but why is the media always painted in a bad light? They inform you and if the media wasn't there you wouldn't know about anything! Like bringing awareness. I understand they can get out of hand but in many situations media is a good thing, but once again I'm bias.

Overall: C

Fun Fact: this movie and American Beauty feature the talented Thora Birch.

Music: check out William Fitzsimmons! He is very soothing, sometimes depressing, but amazing. My favorites include Passion Play and I Don't Feel It Anymore. He also has an amazing cover of Kanye West's Heartless that is worth hearing. Youtube it!

Wow this has gotten quite lengthy. Good night and good luck, a new week is here!

Taking a Fling at Writing

I been missing my high school creative writing class lately so I'm going to try getting back to the exercises we used to do. Remember show, don't tell! haha so this is one is going to be weak sauce cuz I haven't done it in like a year. Here it goes:

She was literally just sitting there, no motion, not even a twitch. Her eyes were concentrated on an invisible object somewhere in front of her, only blinking when necessary. Her orange hair was short, angled in every direction but with a sense purpose, like every piece belonged exactly where it was. A yellow bow seemed to only balance atop the organized chaos. The color in her fixed eyes was a rare green, kind of like the inside of an avocado. I wondered what she was thinking. The subway jerked to halt and almost instantly she came back to life and ran though the open doors, only to be swallowed by the mass of people. Her color absorbed into a sea of gray. It was strangely all I could think about as I sat down at my desk.

Well that's about it for now. A couple side notes: I forgot how much I love snap bracelets. Watch/donate to the hati telethon tonight!!

Then Came You

Today was high and low. I got to go shopping which was very fun. We ran into the craziest Victoria Secret working who wants to make sure everyone FINDS THEIR SCENT. Which to her is probably the equivalent of finding THE ONE or something. Oh and apparently the couple that buys thongs together stays together?? Later on I got my first massage which was pretty amazing. It's a weird theory if you think about it. I don't think I'd want to touch people for a living. hahaha So today I also decided that I don't like bars. They SMELL and they are hick central. I'm going to be a sophisticated drunk someday. Most definitely.

Random movie review: Adam

A story of a socially awkward but intelligent boy named Adam who lives in NYC. A girl moves into his apartment complex and he is forced to learn to interact with her. It's really cute at times other times it makes you sad. It's a sweet story without the boring story book ending. Def a good watch. (Especially with one of your besties.)

Tomorrow is the Golden Globes which I sort of live for. Someday I will attend and in my wildest dreams be nominated and in even wilder dreams win. Oh and hopefully avoid the worst dressed list. I can't wait to see it and bask in the glow of my idols.

Music of the Day:

Someone Else's Life - Joshua Radin

Forever - Chris Brown

Sing Out

Today was pretty boring except that I got to talk to my ROOMIE. YES Oh and TK. They are hilarious and I can't wait to make out semester plans a reality. Gosh I miss being social! haha

I've been doing some SERIOUS thinking. I need to make so for serious future plans. I want to live aboard. It's between Ireland, England, and Germany. I also need someone to accompany me. ;)

Can you just imagine COMPLETE freedom!?!? Parents are 349043859 miles away. Can you say AMAZING?! Being cooped up is making me a crazy person... RAWR

Anyway this is short but sweet. Good night dreamers.

Maniac Monday

My good streak continues!

I went ice skating today with 3 lovely ladies. I can't wait for the Winter Olympics! I'll be watching 24/7. Who cares about class!??!

Unfortunately it's that time again when everyone starts leaving me again. I love having long breaks, but going back the latest out of everyone makes me lonely. This semester I'm setting many many many goals, so here it they are: (in no particular order)

- get at least 2 As

- go out more

- freak out less

- write more

- keep in touch even BETTER

-complain less

- sleep more

- study more

I'm really ready for this new start. It feels like it's going to be awesome. I actually kind of wish I was going back this weekend. I miss my fabulous roommate. I don't know what I'm going to do without her next year. I cry just thinking about it. Hopefully my twin will be there to make it ALL better!! AHHHH

Go Big or Go Home!

Music of the Day:

Brown Eyes - Lady Gaga

You Don't Know Me - Ben Folds ft. Regina Spektor (soooo catchy!)

Love is a Many Splendored Thing

It's about that time for a RandomRant! I've been watching a lot of TV shows and movies lately. (actually, when don't I?) Just about everything I've watched has some small or large love story line. There are a million themes out that that revolve around love. My conclusion: It's NEVER easy, age matters...sometimes, just when you think you've found it-you were wrong, being a spy and love DO NOT mix, you CAN'T be JUST friends with a member of the opposite sex, and to many it's a fantasy until your in it.

I wonder if anyone knows what movies and shows I have been watching haha

It really makes me think about LOVE. What a word. I wonder if anyone will ever really be able to describe it, because I sure can't. Maybe would should erase it from our vocabulary. I wonder what would happen then.

On a different note I would like to make some music suggestions! (this will probably be reoccurring):

Animal - Miike Snow (yes there are 2 is, and it's SUPER catchy)

Kiss with a Fist - Florence + the Machine (song from Jennifer's Body (horrible movie btw) also very catchy and VIOLENT)

Do Better - Say Anything (makes me want to just you know do better!)

So all in all GREAT weekend. Still contemplating love, but I'm pretty sure I have a loooooong time to do that. Good night!

Day 1

Welcome to the blogging world!

I'm a little apprehensive about starting this, but I've decided to finally go for it. This is going to be for the most part, random, ridiculous, and just fun. I'm going to write as much as possible, even if it's a boring or lame. On that note:

It's SUNDAY. This weekend has been a blast, even though my originals plans fell through. I got to spent some quality time with some of my favorite people doing some of my favorite things. I watched 500 Days of Summer for the third time. I still love it, and I notice new things every time. This time I keep thinking about inappropriate times to play the penis game... like at church this morning. I remember I first played it at a bowling alley. haha

Anyway this is a slow start but excitement is yet to come! (hopefully)

ps. Watch CHUCK 8-10 NBC. Just do it.